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[19 Aug 2005|03:58pm] |
new lj bitches. IF u wanna know it add me and i'll add u back. deal?
but if u have more than one lj name im not putting it on there just the one u use often.ok?
my lj is: Like__OMFG haha
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[18 Aug 2005|10:16pm] |
i think its time to let go fast.
im not gonna sit here and give u wut u want.
when u dont even know i exist.
+ The pain in ur eyes, makes me satisified +
But thats to bad too,
because a little bit at
a time, im beginning to convince myself
u dont exist either. nor have u ever..
and that turns my frown into a real smile.
Look Shawn, im actually smiling but that doesnt mean i dont cry anymore..
i just dont cry on the outside.
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[18 Aug 2005|02:40pm] |
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wow! havent wrote in here in a long time..
well school is getting bettr. theres a GREAT chance i might go to RHS next yr for everyone who gives a hell. uhm.. well, i have dirty blonde hair now. i like someone..
JUST ONE person.. i miss molly, i need this weekend to come FAST! high school is grreat! I love it. i got my hair cut! i have angled bangs now, they look pretty, uh.. well, they look like my style? ok? lol im officinally single again! ME and gus broke up we were together for like a few days but then we broke up with eachothr bc it didnt feel rite i guess? But yess...Riley is gonna goo! peace outt <333
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Roxybrat81690: why do i love him?
ReallyBlondeMZ: because its like you said riley,once you have fallen you can never get back up again, its like that drug.. u have to have more of that love to get back up on ur feet
Roxybrat81690: i dont know..
ReallyBlondeMZ: okay well wut do YOU want my dear?
Roxybrat81690: I want the fairytale...=\
ReallyBlondeMZ:i know, everyone does.
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[11 Aug 2005|02:45pm] |
Well, school was good.. being surrounded by all new people that are my friends now always keeps a smile on my face! but then when it hits 6th period my smile is erased from my face. I look at Shawn's EX EX girlfriend Ashley that he lost his virginity too, and hers too.. and DONT TAKE THIS THE WRONG WAY but rite away i always picture them having sex all the time and it just makes me uncomfortable, and the fact that everyone from phoenix is coming up to me and asking me if im still w. shawn it just when im finally beginning to enjoy myself, and put out the flame, someone says his name and then all of a sudden i catch on fire. I dont want to love him anymore.. He doesnt even want to talk to me.. but obviously to everyone and him its my fualt. its ALWAYS the good person and hard worker's fualt. ALWAYS. but oh well, the crew is coming ovr soon. they KEEP A SMILE ON MY FACE NO MATTR WUT. otherwise, im going.. im not feeling to happy so im gonna go find something that does. gbye
im to lonely.
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I THINK IM JUST GONNA JUST CRY TILL MY EYES BLEED..
BECAUSE THATS THE ONLY PAINFUL THING THAT CAME OUT AS HAPPINESS FOR ME..
HE DOESNT BELIEVE IM A GOOD PERSON.. AND NEITHER DOES ANYONE ELSE.
SO WUTS THE POINT OF WANTING TO BE HERE WHEN U TOOK AS MANY RISKS AS POSSIBLE
TO GIVE HIM WUT HE WANTD.. AND THEN HE PISSES IN UR FACE? I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND WHY IM SUCH AN ASSHOLE TO HIM. AND WHY EVERYONE DOESNT BELIEVE A DAMN WORD I SAY.. SO WHATEVER U DONT WANT TO LISTEN TO MY WORDS. THEN U DONT HAVE TOO. IM GONNA START AVOIDING EVERYONE WHO ISNT CLOSEST TO ME. SO IF UR NOT.. THEN FUCK OFF OTHERWISE. GOODBYE, AND HAVE A NICE DAY.. </3> I LOVE U, AND IM SORRY.. :'(
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[10 Aug 2005|03:22pm] |
PLANS HAVE CHANGED!!
MY BIRTHDAY PARTY EXTRAVANGANZA IS THIS WEEKEND!!
ME AND MELLISA'S BOTH.. ITS GONNA BE AWESOME!!
COMMENT IF U WANNA COME OR IM MEE!!
PRINCESSRIOTT
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[09 Aug 2005|04:50pm] |
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Well hmm.. today was good not as good as yesterday but it was good!!
High school is amazing i feel really "FIT" there, its wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy bettr then fucking middle school! i hate fuckin middle school im glad im out! But i still miss last yr though.. =\? but anyways..
i have a couple of new cool people that i talk to now and yes they are guys bc girls in HS are just ignorant little preppy bitches. OOH OOHH!! I JUST GOT INVITED TO MY FIRST KEG PARTY!! lol yes i have been to a few but i actually got invited! lol sorry.. haha ROFL. OOH OHH! MY BIRTHDAY IS THIS SUNDAY SO COMMENT AND WISH ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY PLEASE! BUT, IM THROWING A PARTY THIS SATURDAY ITS GONNA BE MELLISA LEE AND RILEY KENNEDY'S BIRTHDAY BASH EXTRAVAGANZA! SO IF U WANNA COME IM ME: princessriott and i'll give u my number bc i dont like giving it through MS and LJ. But its gonna be pretty cool so yeaahh.. anywho, I think im gonna gooo... so like i said comment if u wanna come or im mee!! PRINCESSRIOTT! <333
Sincerly, and love from...
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my first day of HS was pretty good! I met new people, and new teachers they all seem pretty kickass.. i had fun on my first day.. i met my old friends from like elementry up to at least 6 & 7th lol all i can say is i really like hs bettr then middle school i feel my age in hs and i feel like i belong <3 YAYY
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[07 Aug 2005|06:38pm] |
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Well, the weekend was good.. Friday went to the movies with David and the whole crew.
Saturday, went to the mall and molly mel and I all stole shit i stole two necklaces and a ring, the necklaces from Claires. and the ring from cat man doo. haha well we all didnt have any money so we decided to be bad little girls haha <333 and then we bumped in to Chelc so we hung out with her and she dropped us off at mel's.. Tisa and Molly stayed the night along w. me.. Schools tomorrow and im deathly ill.. Not really im just being dramatic.. But i am pretty sick though.. But im doing a little bettr? But im gonna go because im a little exhausted.. so im gonna go lie my sick ass down.. Comment plz to pray and help me get better bc shit im about to just rip my lungs out. and my nose! ROFL! <3
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I MISS MY FAMILY STILL..I MISS YELLING AT EVERYONE, I MISS THE FIGHTS, I MISS THE FOOD FIGHTS AND EVERYONE DANCING WITH THE LAPTOPS, I MISS THE SCREAMING AND ARGUMENTS, I MISS THE PEOPLE I HUNG OUT W. AND GOT INTO TROUBLE WITH ME, I MISS MR. FLUERIMA'S ROOM AND HOW STUPID I ALWAYS WAS IN THERE BC GUS WOULD COME IN.. I MISS HOW I COULD WALK INTO MR F'S ROOM ASKING FOR A PEN EVERY SINGLE TIME BC GUS WAS IN THERE HAHAAHA <3
I MISS JOSH BEING A NERD.. I MISS JAQQI AND MACKY I MISS KAT, AND HOW OPINIONATED SHE ALWAYS WAS BUT AT THE VERY SAME TIME SHE WAS ALWAYS RIGHT. I MISS THE BATHROOMS.. IF U WENT TO PHOENIX AND U WERE MY FRIENDS IM SURE YOU WOULD KNOW WUT IM TALKING BOUT RIGHT NOW LOL <3 TO EVERYONE WHO WENT TO PA WITH ME WE'RE STARTING A NEW YR AND I LOVE YOU GUYS MORE THAN ANYTHING!!!! AND IF I MISSED A MEMORY THAT U ENJOYED AS WELL JUST COMMENT WITH THAT MEMORY OR ANY MEMORY WE HAD TOGETHER BC IM SURE I HAD A LOT WITH PEOPLE!! LOL..COMMENT ! PLZ..
THANKS FOR BEING THERE FOR MEE AND IM GLAD I WAS THERE TO HELP ALL OF YOUR GUYS' PROBLEMS AS WELL AS MY OWN! <333 MUCH LOVE. <333
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uh yeah i guess u can say im pretty nervous and excited about high school..
but i cant wait bc i have some classes w. my old friends that i havent seen in a while!
macky came back last nite, molly is coming back early today to hang out with mellisa tisa and I after Tisa gets back from getting her HAIR DID.. and Hunter was being really amazing last night.. i dont know he just was he was talking to me being cool last night and i loved it! When he's himself and not such an ass hole we get along just great. but he was being really nice last night and i really appreciated it. but anyways.. PLEASE STILL COMMENT ON MY SCHEDULE PLEASE! because i still want to know who else i have classes with! <3 but anyways... i dont have anything else to say besides good byee <33333 OH AND MY NEFEW IS FOUR MONTHS OLD NOW. pretty exciting huh?¿?¿!
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[05 Aug 2005|11:07am] |
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My schedule for shs!
1.Inter.Science
2.Ceramics
3.Tv production 1
4.Lunch
5.pre algebra
6.Math 1
7.English 1
IF U HAVE ANY CLASSES WITH ME COMMENT!! I CANT WAIT TILL HIGH SCHOOOOOOOL im so excitedd ya'll!! <3333
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shawn came over today.. and i completely fell a part... i started throwing the truth in his face like he told me too... and then i deffinitely remember the last thing i said to him.
gus: then tell me the truth then.
me: then okay i will are u ready? let me go in the middle
of the god damn road so everyone can here me ok!!?
mellisa: riley stop!
me:no i want him to hear this!
gus: no just let her go on
me: U BROKE UP WITH ME BC I WAS DOING BOTH OF OUR JOBS TRYING TO KEEP ARE FUCKING RELATIONSHIP STEADY AGAIN AND WHAT DID U DO? U JUST FUCKING SAT THERE AND YELLED AT ME AND DIDNT OPEN UP UR GOD DAMN EYES OF HOW MUCH SHIT I WAS TRYING TO do FOR THE BOTH OF US HOW MUCH GOOD DEEDS I WAS TRYING TO DO TO KEEP U AND US "TOGETHER" BUT U WERE TO BUSY HATING UR FUCKING DAD TO LISTEN TO ME..
GUS:see i new u hated me
me: NO GUS I DONT HATE U IT JUST PISSES ME OFF THE FACT THAT U PUNISHED ME FOR DOING SOMETHING GOOD FOR THE BOTH OF US!!
Gus:IT WASNT EVEN ABOUT U THOUGH!! IT WAS ABOUT FAMILY PROBLEMS! IT HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU!!
me: YA WELL IT MUST HAVE HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH ME!!! BC U FUCKING THREW ME AWAY BC OF IT!!!!
GUS: RILEY, U SERIOUSLY NEED TO STOP FUCKING YELLING AT ME OK ITS JUST ENOUGH IM SORRY TO YELL AT U BUT FUCK MAN!
ME: WELL U DESERVE IT!!!
GUS: SEE I KNEW U HATED ME!!
ME: OH YEAH LET ME EXPLAIN TO YOU HOW MUCH I HATE U.
GUS: WELL U DONT CARE BOUT ME ANYMORE
ME: OH REALLY!!!!!!!!!! MAYBE IF U FUCKING READ UR TEXT MESSAGES ONCE IN UR GOD DAMN LIFE THEN MAYBE U COULD OPEN UR EYES ON TO UR LITTLE PHONE SCREEN AND READ WHAT I HAVE TO SAY JUST TAKE A LITTLE BIT FOR ME FOR ONCE IN UR GOD DAMN LIFE SINCE U WERE THE CONCEPT IN MINE!!!!
and then i walk away and then he leaves.... end of story... im leaving now.
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I just dont understand a lot of this thing called "Life"
what happens if u really do need that caring guy to complete you?
wut if u find wut u want and when u still hold on to it and it isnt urs forever like everyone says.. maybe u just need to get hurt to go ur own seperate way?
maybe u need that drug ur fiening for? that drug of when u fall inlove and u need more love to get u back up again? I know i say i know wut the hell i want but honestly.. im only 15 in a half. I dont think i exactly know wut i want.. all i want is someone to be with me until the end. someone who understands the real me. someone who will write me his feelings even if it does seem cheesy. Someone who will write me how he feels in a song and give it to me with a rose on top of it with pretty writing.. someone who will actually know who i am and remind me of it when i lose myself.someone who will always see me as who they met when i seem to change some things.. someone who will carry my picture in his wallot and when ppl ask who that is he'll says "its the love of my life" even if he's with his boys and it seems corny to say something like that. someone who will call me even if he is just saying "HELLO BABE" and then "goodbye" just so i know hes thinking of me.. someone who will tell me he loves me and he REALLY means it. someone who i can take pictures with on my camra phone and put it as my backround and we look happier then ever.and people say "awe sweetie u look so happy im so proud of you!" I guess I will have to wait a little longer and see if my happy ending comes around again..
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im trying to work out my problems and deal with them before anything..
before blaming them all on other people. and I haven't. SO much shit has been happening this whole entire month in a half that I don't know what to do. My only mother i have left right now breaking a part, my youngest sister just falling a part as well, feeling like i cant do anything to make her feel better. Even tho shes doing SO much better now like i knew she would. But since those problems are now solved i know it isnt that big of a deal to all of you. But my bestest friend in the entire WORLD is moving quite soon.. and honeslty, i have NO god damn idea wut im gonna do without her. usually i'll be kinda like BLAH at my sister in law's boyfriend's house and just have her by my side bc shes a lone without someone just like me and just got out of her 6th month relationship a yr ago and that was HER first love.and i know that when i know she isnt gonna be there with me all the time im gonna be watching my sister put that "IM SO INLOVE" smile on and im gonna look at her and really want that again i want that smile back again, i really want that feeling back again where i know i can run to him whenever i feel unsafe. and my best friend thats moving always takes me away from that state of mind.i really like Hunter, A LOT. just looking at him sometimes just makes me want to tell him every god damn thing on the tip of my mind.but i guess my happy ending isnt going to happen for me in a long time..
I REALLY LIKE HIM and, it wont go away.. </3
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Just bc im still inlove with ONE person doesnt exactly mean i cant like someone else.. its called "MOVING ON" i just dont get why people just cant try to at least understand and let me deal with my bullshit on my own! EVERYONE JUST WANTS ME TO BE WITH FUCKING SHAWN AND I CANT BE WITH HIM ONLY BECAUSE HE HURT ME AND HE MADE ME BE ALWAYS CONFUSED BC IM STILL INLOVE WITH HIM AND HES ALWAYS IN MY FUCKING HEAD AND IM TRYING TO MY FUCKING HARDEST TO MOVE ON!!!!!!!!!!!! AND IF IT MAKES ALL U LITTLE ASSHOLES FEEL ANY BETTER HE'S ALWAYS IN MY HEAD NON STOP NO MATTER WUT I TRY TO DO HES ALWAYS THERE. I DONT LIKE RYAN I ONLY LIKE THE THINGS HE DOES AND I LIKE THE PERSON THAT HE IS!! I WISH I NEVER FELL INLOVE BECAUSE EVEN WHEN U TRY U CANT GET BACK UP AGAIN.. I FUCKING HATE HAPPY COUPLES! I CANT STAND THEM BC I LOOK AT THEM AND I WISH I HAD IT AGAIN AND I KNOW IM TO UGLY AND TO STUPID OF A FUCKING PERSON TO HAVE SOMETHING THAT AMAZING IN MY LIFE AGAIN.. I HAD IT BUT FOR SOME REASON MY BOYFRIEND HAD TO BECOME A FUCKING ASSHOLE AND A PHYSCOPATH AND FREEK OUT BECAUSE HE WAS "ASSUMING" OUR RELATIONSHIP ISNT GOING ANYWHERE ANYMORE..WHE NHE WAS THE ONE WHO WOULDNT AT LEAST CHANGE HIS ACTIONS AND TALK TO ME!! AND EVERYONE OF HIS FRIENDS ARE MAKING ME SEEM LIKE THE ASSHOLE HERE. YES IM HAVING SELF PITTY BUT U KNOW WHAT ALL OF U CAN GO SUCK MY BIG LONG HARD DICK! BECAUSE IM TIRED OF TRYING TO MEASURE UP TO SOMEONE STANDARDS WHEN HE DUMPED MY ASS IN THE FIRST PLACE! IM TIRED OF BEING CONFUSED, IM TIRED OF BEING IN LOVE MY FRIENDS BOYFRIEND MACKY'S BEST FRIEND, I DONT WANT TO ANYMORE! IM TIRED OF GETTING REJECTIONS. IM TIRED OF JUST BASICALLY EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW.. I LOVE WHEN U GUYS TRY TO HELP ME, BUT THE FACTOR OF THAT IS U GUYS MAKE IT MORE WORSE THEN IT IS. AND THATS WHY I JUST TRY TO LISTEN BUT AT THE SAME TIME IT IS VERY DIFFICULT TO LISTEN TO SHIT THAT DOESNT MAKE ANY SENSE TO ME. NO ONE GOT MY STORIES STRAIGHT I DONT FUCKING GET WHY THERES COMMENTS IN LIVE JOURNAL WHEN THE COMMENT SHOULD BE REPLACED AS "CLICK HERE TO BITCH" THEN I COULD COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND! THIS IS A FUCKING PLACE WHERE U SAY WUT U FEEL AND PEOPLE WILL HELP YOU. PEOPLE HELP YOU BUT IN A VERY DRAMATIC UR FUCKING DUMB.. SORTA WAY. BUT WHATEVER, IM DONE BEING A DUMBASS OVER HERE SO IM GONNA GO. BITCH IF U MAY, BITCH IF THIS ENTRY IS DEATHLY BOTHERING YOU. BUT IF U BITCH AT ME IM NOT FUCKING LISTENING BC IM DONE WITH EVERYONES LITTLE BITCHING SHIT!! <3333 LOVE.
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Okay well i think my heart finally knows wut it wants.. I think i really like Hunter again? A LOT.
Because i know i will NEVER have Ryan.. Because he is still inlove w. his ex gf..Im not just going to one guy after anothr but thats what my heart was telling me for awhile.. before i even liked ryan really..
because today we got at it, then back to normal as FRIENDS with benefits and all of that goodie good stuff.. Mellisa told David she loved him today! I find that cute, i really like them together.. they make me smile. I dont think i have many feelings for Gus anymore.. i've realized that once i talked to him last night and i didnt feel like talking to him after 30 min.. which thats how i know bc usually i like to talk to him forever.. But today at David's was fun but dramatic at the same time but it was cool too.. i had a blast i always do when im over there except the fact my wonderful OTHER GIRL wasnt there so the COMPLETE "GIRLS" werent there.. but yeah it was funny..
but i think i have to go.. Im peacen nigga's byeee <3333
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yeah im going home very soon just thought i'd update. comment for the looong while im not be updating <3
We're going down swinging.. <3
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